The therapist meeting in the morning went well. Got me thinking about a project that’s weighing me down a bit and how to deal with it little by little, day by day. Setting daily goals and do them first thing in the morning when I get up. This way, my brain will concentrate on the task and do a little each morning. By the end of a week, I will have completed a fair bit of it and taken more of the stress away.
It was my first AA meeting in person this evening and it went very well. It is only a small group, which they told me never really gets passed 12 fellows. This was comforting as I prefer to have a smaller group, rather than the larger meetings that I have heard about and attended whilst in rehab. Personally, I feel it allows more opportunities to share and build trust with your fellows. The topic was on resentment, and I felt comfortable enough to do my first share, right out of the blocks! I shared how I have previously had resentment towards certain people that, out of my control, would always trigger me and I would inevitably always buy some wine on the way home. I shared how my time in rehab allowed me to confront this resentment, amongst others, and put them to rest by passing to my higher power. I also shared how I have learnt new techniques to deal with these issues as and when they will occur in the future, and how I am purposely avoiding such triggers as part of my recovery plan.
It felt amazing to now find an AA group, that after my first meeting, I already feel really comfortable in and want to come back week after week. I am determined to make this meeting part of my weekly routine and attend every week.
It may be my first meeting, but will this group be comfortable for me in the weeks to come?
