Day 6.

Still in detox, medication is still the same.  Normal morning Benzo still.

Continental breakfast.

More relaxed day as it’s the weekend.  I am feeling more myself again now that I am 6 days in with no alcohol.  I think that the diazepam is also making me feel like this though, as it does make me a bit spaced out and not stop talking.

Bonding with more peers and finding out more about their stories and life.  Other peers are opening up to me more and I am sharing my experiences in return.  It is a nice feeling to open up with people that you are starting to trust more.  I am feeling more comfortable in my surroundings now.

When having a cigarette in the morning on my own, a Robbin flew beside me and stayed by my side for a good 10-15 minutes.  This reminded me of a Robin given to me by a family member a long time ago.

The day consisted of peer sessions which were inciteful, but I felt there was nothing I could share, as their stories did not fully relate to me.

I spent some time today going through my “Stage 1” work.  Bullet pointing my life story to write up and share in the group.  This story needs to be approved by my therapist before I can share it.

Football was the main activity today, for which I did not play, football is not my thing, but instead decided to help by providing refreshments of water and fruit.

Meditation was straight after the football, and I felt very relaxed after it.  However, this relaxed feeling did not last long.

I was still feeling a bit up and down emotionally, especially when the medication was wearing off a bit.  Whilst I was having a bit of a down moment after the meditation, a nurse came up to me.  The nurse then told me off for taking glasses and bowls outside to the main lawn, as this was against health and safety.  I should have known better and instead took out the plastic ones.  Normally this would not have affected me.  But due to feeling on a downer, it triggered me and got me emotional.  Other nurses calmed me down and I was given another diazepam.

Alcohol withdrawal really plays with your emotions!  Within an hour I was back to telling random stories to other peers.

Later on, was quiz and movie night.  The quiz was enjoyable and the team I was on won, which was satisfying.  The movie I could not get into though, as I had just had my evening medication and was slightly spaced out.  So I joined other peers in the drawing room for a chat and a laugh to wind down.  I was still in this weird mood though, as I kept oversharing, but everyone was fine with me and we just had a laugh, it was the medication.

Another peer in my group is leaving tomorrow.

First therapist session tomorrow at 11 am