80 days! Feeling good and strong!

Good day at work, but on my own now for just over a week, only 2 people and the other person is on holiday.  This won’t make the job harder, just lonelier as I am on the road and normally speak with the other person all the time to keep my motivation strong.  Moved into a new area today though, took on a new client and focused on some existing clients.  So a peaceful day with no stress.

The AA Meeting was very good this evening, a few new faces with people visiting the group and the main share was on ‘A New Life’.

From listening to the others share, I realised within myself that I need to apply myself to AA more.  Attend more meetings and find a sponsor.  Life may be going well right now, but once aftercare finishes, I will need further support.  Also, the sponsor will be there in times of need as they occur, for which I don’t have that set yet.

I shared how I am extremely grateful for rehab, and how rehab has given me the kickstart in my recovery to build a new life of sobriety.  Mainly how it has helped me to build a new routine, stick to the routine, and discover what my triggers are and how to handle them.  I also shared how I see the great benefits of the AA and the fellowship.  The core foundations of sharing with fellow alcoholics and hearing their stories are just a small part of knowing that you are not alone on your recovery journey

In my share, I also spoke about how I have seen friends, recently posting on socials, about going out to the pub drinking.  I have accepted that this is not my life anymore and that especially during early recovery, this is not an environment that I can put myself into.  This did however bring up some fear in me, the fear of missing out and rejection.  It will take time for me to sort out these fears.

After the meeting, I had a chat with some fellows, who reassured me that I am on the right path by not giving in and going out with the social group.  They also reinforced that I need to get a sponsor, as the sponsor would help me in times like this.

I must put my recovery first, social life will come back.  It will be a new life, with new friends who also understand my sobriety