Day 40.

Felt like my body needed a lie-in. 6.45 am wake up.  I did wake up at 6 am but fell asleep again.

Yesterday I was a buddy again to another new peer, and today he seems to have settled in nicely, bonding well with other peers and not asking me many questions.

I had some mixed feelings in the group today, I do appreciate and value the group leader who is also a therapist, but today I felt the leader spent too much time sharing their own experiences and leaving little time for the group itself to share.  When I could share, there was not much time left and I felt the feedback was rushed, direct, and not as constructive.  I have possibly looked too much into this, but reflecting, I do feel if the leader shared less, it may have left more time for the group to share and provide constructive feedback overall.

Greif session I opened up on how I have realized, since starting rehab, that I was in denial and angry and did not grieve properly.  I also shared that in writing the letter to my dad, I realized that I had not shared some feelings with him before he passed, which is a little hard to process.  But it did feel good and relieving to let these emotions out in this group.

The anxiety lecture was insightful and relative to aftercare and relapse, and how anxiety can lead to a relapse.

Change the Changeable
Accept the Changeable

Remove yourself from the Unacceptable