Day 42.

Attended church again and it felt nice to have more of my faith being restored.  The church was busier than last week, due to it being Easter Sunday.  Felt like a bit more magic in the air, in the celebration that Christ has risen.  Yesterday evening, some peers were painting eggs, I thought about painting one for the Minister at the church but forgot to do it.  During the service, the minister asked if anyone had brought an egg in for him, which symbolizes the rolling stone, at this moment I realized I should have painted an egg and brought it in.

Church also made me feel warm inside knowing that I will be attending Church every Sunday when home.

When we arrived back at the castle, I had to take 2 breathalyzer tests, as the first test was positive for alcohol.  Surely they did not put alcohol in the coffee. The second test was clear.

It was a relaxed day today.  One of the peers had set up ‘Easter Games’ and I decided that rather than participate, I would help this peer out and also take scores of the teams  At the end of the activities, there was a ‘recreate this picture’ competition, in which all the peers got props and dressed up to recreate the picture.  This was very entertaining.  After tallying up the scores, the winners were given an Easter egg, and all teams received a bag full of small chocolate eggs to hand out to all the team members.  It was a fun day!

The nurses weighed me today, 67.8kg.  Even after 6 weeks of three meals a day and not really any exercise, my weight has not changed much.

Family therapy went well, with me explaining what my recovery plan involves and what I need to do, in order to minimize the risk of relapse.  It felt reassuring to hear that my family will support me.

I realized today that it is going to take time to rebuild my relationships with my family and friends and that some friendships may never be mended.

I must take control of MY recovery!