Strange morning waking up in the house on my own again, back to reality.  Spent the morning working on some more of the project before work.

This evening was my last aftercare session.  The aftercare session started at the beginning again talking about feelings and attitudes and using the word bank to express how you feel.  I found this interesting, as in the first session I wrote down what I was feeling.  Comparing this to what I felt this evening is a massive improvement.

In the first session, I was feeling anxious, worried, guilty and afraid.  Tonight in my last session I am feeling happy, joyful, hopeful, grateful and worthwhile.

It comes back to the phrase ‘it works if you work it’, and it has certainly worked for me.  10 weeks ago, if I was told I would feel like this now, I would have been sceptical.  I have put hard work into looking into myself and making changes, and I feel that this dramatic change has happened.

Sessions I had in aftercare;

26/4 – Anxiety and Worry
03/5 – Small Steps & Box Breathing
10/5 – Fear
17/5 – Missing out & rejection
24/5 – Anger
31/5 – Anger Management
7/6 – Acceptance
14/6 – RET Model
21/6 – Gratitude
28/6 – Feelings of Forgiveness

Aftercare has certainly helped me in creating new behaviours and understanding myself.  It has provided me with the tools to continue my recovery, and I am hopeful that I will be able to maintain sobriety with these tools.

One day at a time, using the skills, knowledge and tools I have learned to continue sobriety!

Gratitudes:
I am grateful for rehab and aftercare for providing me with the tools to maintain sobriety
I am grateful for the support around me with friends and fellows
I am grateful to be sober another day