Day 22.
The routine is coming back. Settled back into castle life, but I can see a few differences in some peers, as some other peers left whilst I was in isolation. It’s amazing how some time away can open your eyes and allow me to see little signs I have previously missed.
I am more than ever focus on myself and recovery, I’m still not getting involved with rumours and gossip. I’m primarily here for me.
In the group, I read out the consequences of my addiction. Blackouts, loss of control. The group provided me with constructive feedback and how they can relate to my examples. It feels good to be involved in the group again and even better to share. Feels like another weight off my shoulders.
After 1 1/2 hours on the phone with my insurance company, they have approved a 17-day extension. Still waiting for them to tell me about aftercare.
Read another AA big book story in the quiet room, slowly moving through them, and find them very interesting.
Not able to write the letter to my dad as not feeling up for it. Over the next few days, I will have it done.
I am happy and pleased that I have been given the extension. I am wanting to continue in the castle for as long as I possibly can. I feel the confines of the castle are allowing me to get a grasp of the 12 steps in a safe and comfortable surrounding, with no outside world influence and triggers.
Another 17 days, one step at a time.
