Day 8.

6 am Wake up, however, decided to sleep in for a bit. 6:45 wake up. Had a good sleep.

Today was a good day and the motivation is slowly returning.

First breakfast in the main dining hall, continental breakfast.  Felt nice to walk down with my peers and start the day with them.

8 days off alcohol and I am feeling good within myself and starting to feel the benefits of not having drink or drugs.

I have been bonding more with other peers and I feel they are bonding more with me (even though I am still telling crazy stories when the medication kicks in).

Did not have any wobbly moments today, but did feel cold all day.  Spoke with the nurses about this, and my vitals were all good with no concerns.  It was simply really cold weather and I was feeling the cold.  Not showing any symptoms of a cold, so all is fine.

Still on 5mg in the morning and 5mg at night, but tomorrow it will decrease to 2mg morning and 5mg at night.  Which I am pleased with as I’m slowly weaning off the Benzo.

I found the DMT lecture very useful today, as one of my peers is slowly starting to get to me, as they keep taking control and diverting the lectures onto other topics.  Ironically the ‘STOP’ in DMT came into use and I used this skill and put it into action.

I spoke with a member of staff about this, as it was starting to get to me, and they put me at ease through the realisation that every peer is on a different journey in recovery.

Received my life story back from my therapist and I was happy to find out that I did not need to make any amendments.  I have been told to read this to my group tomorrow.   I have mixed emotions about this as it’s personal to me and honest, I am also anxious to hear my group’s feedback on it.

Attended acupuncture which was very relaxing.  To a point, I was seeing vivid lines of colour with my eyes closed.  So relaxed I was in a trance where I was making faint snoring sounds, but not falling asleep.  When it was over, I was wide awake and fully relaxed.  I had magnets put in my ears after, for which I will keep them in for a few days, or until they irritate me.

There are a few peers that I am becoming close with.  But I am also consciously aware of not spending all my time with them and mixing with other peers.

I feel my journey to recovery is becoming stronger every day and I am looking forward to completing rehab and taking my learning and coping techniques back out into the real world.

Shared my ’10 Consequences’ of my addiction in the group today.  This felt good to let my emotions out and express my reasons as to why I feel I am in rehab.  The feedback from the group was encouraging and enlightening to hear.  It reinforced my feeling that I am not alone.  As addicts, we all share common issues that have led us here into rehab.

One Day At A Time

Every day I am growing stronger in self-awareness of my addiction