I had a better sleep last night as it was a lot cooler. Good morning working on website planning and learning a new feature that will allow me to manage social media easier.
The sun broke through by the afternoon and I had a good day at work. Need to get out on the kayak more whilst the weather is still good.
Yesterday I read this quote and re-read it this morning, that got me thinking all day:
“You don’t get over an addiction by stopping using. You recover by creating a new life where it is easier not to use.
If you don’t create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addiction will catch up with you again”
– Unknown.
112 days into my new life. I have not had any cravings and managing my triggers well. I am more motivated, happier and healthier. No more arguments with people over stupid conversations or messages. No more double guessing myself. No more doubting myself. No more waking up with a feeling of guilt and shame.
When I look back on the time of active addiction, I now see how there was no life, and the new life I have created so far is a new and happy life.
It did take me time to adjust, but I feel I started to create a new life from the minute I started rehab.
My new life started when I admitted to myself that I had a problem and that my life was unmanageable. After this, it was all about finding out my triggers and learning new ways to cope with them, rather than simply picking up a drink.
Once out of the rehab bubble, this is when my new life truly started. I will never forget walking into a supermarket hours after coming out of rehab. People, sounds, bright lights and smells. All of my senses were greatly heightened.
In the coming weeks, I stuck to my recovery plan and took one day at a time, slowly working on forging my new life. New daily routines, keeping busy, not allowing myself to procrastinate, eating healthy and not letting stress or triggers kick in.
I am still creating my new life, and feel that I always will be, a life of sobriety where I must always be vigilant of my addiction and my triggers.
Every day is a new day, and one day at a time, I will keep on forging my new life.
