Woke up at 9 am this morning with no alarm, and it felt good to have catch-up on some sleep. First time I have woken up past 7.30 am in a while.
Morning reflection was focused on the question – Do I find it easier as I go along? I have been taking each day as it comes, one day at a time. Each day I have been forming new habits and keeping a set routine. I am 124 days in sobriety today and I feel that I am starting to find it easier each day.
At first, in rehab, it was a bit of a struggle to get into a new routine, then going home and out of the bubble, I had to remind myself throughout the day, every day, about keeping the routine and building new habits. I have made a lot of mends for my past, and feel this has also helped me to take each day slowly and as it comes. I have found the best thing about sobriety, is that I can remember every day, I don’t have any sense of remorse from the day before and I do so much more with each day than I ever did in active addiction.
I also feel that I am growing stronger every day in learning how to deal with the daily storms that present themselves, and not allowing these to trigger me, using the techniques I learnt in rehab and from my fellowship. Staying in touch with fellows daily also makes each day easier, as they are also going through challenges like mine.
Another fellow left today, and they had mentioned to me how they wanted to go to the Falkirk Wheel. This fellow had a large gap between checking out the hotel to their flight home, so I picked this fellow and surprised them by taking a small trip to the wheel. I also took the fellow that is staying with me, and we all had a good time, and more memories were created. On the way back to the airport, this fellow treated us to a meal, and then it was time to say goodbyes to another fellow.
Reality is starting to kick in that I am back to work on Monday, but I still have tomorrow, and I am surprising the fellow that is staying with me.
Stick to the routine and relapse prevention, one day at a time.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for another good day in the company of my fellows.
I am grateful for the nice weather today.
I am grateful for my fellow buying me a meal.
I am grateful for another day sober.
