Another day of waking up fresh at 5.30am, in a good mood ready for the day.
Got a notification that my new broadband internet provider this morning, saying that they would be coming at 8 am to install a new fibre optic broadband line. Due to this, I decided to do a bit of organising of the living room, ready for the installation, and started on a bit more of the project, but then cut it short due to the installers arriving.
After a few hours of the installers doing their job, I have new broadband! Well impressed, amazing speed (faster than my previous supplier) and with the booster installed, it even works in the back garden. My previous supplier could not get this to work properly, for which they blamed the building walls and other objects blocking the Wi-Fi signal, a load of rubbish as it works now.
Different day at work as I had a 2hr drive there and back to visit new clients. It was nice to get away from the normal area and refreshing as it mixed up a bit of my work pattern from the normal type of day.
I know already that I have a fear of acceptance, but a new fear came across me today.
The fear of missing out. This fear kicked in when I have seen some posts on social media with friends having fun, down the pub and out socialising. I thought about the reason I am sober again and why I have not been making a strong effort to contact people.
I need to start contacting people more, but if they are down the pub or in a drinking social situation, this will not be good for my early recovery and something I should avoid.
This should not stop me from speaking with people though and in the future when I do attend these social events, be the last to arrive, first to leave and only stay for a little bit.
But for now, when I start making contact with people again, if they invite me out to attend, I should politely decline and make them aware of why it’s not a good idea for me to attend. I will offer to meet them though for a coffee and a catch-up.
Good and true friends will understand, time will tell who I see again
