Due to having an early night, woke up at 5.30 am and had a good start to the day. Felt refreshed. Stuck to the plan and got on with more of the project, did not overthink it this morning and just did little bits that needed to be done, not that they were done in order, just that I am completing it a little at a time.

A good friend from rehab was going home today after 10 weeks of treatment. I met my friend to catch up before work and saw her off home at the train station. It was really nice to have this catch-up and to see her doing so well, it was also really comforting to know that we are going to be close friends on the outside now and help each other in hard times of recovery (they are always going to happen). She was taken from rehab straight into town, so it was interesting to see how she handled lots of people and big crowds. I could tell it was a bit overwhelming for her, but we went for a coffee and I could see her slowly adjust. It reminded me of when I came home and went to the shops – people, bright lights, smells and sounds – overwhelming but in a good way. You see the world differently with a sober head-on.

Work went a lot smoother today and I stuck to the planning I had made. I need to stick to my daily working plan and have more days like this.

The online psychoeducation meeting in the evening went well, more people joined, and we started on fear. What fears do I have?

I know that one of my fears is acceptance, but I will need to think about this more before the meeting again next week. It also made me think about my fear of heights and vertigo, since coming out of rehab, strangely I have not had this fear anymore and have not suffered vertigo at all. I use to suffer vertigo when driving sometimes and looking up towards the sky when parked, but now I don’t get this anymore. Was this feeling related to the drinking and not fully feeling myself the next day?

Overall a better day, sticking to the daily plan. One day at a time!