Much better day today.  I have been feeling more positive and had a productive day.

Spent some time working on the website, mostly the backend making it more optimised for search engines, and sorting out templates for social posts.  Had to go through each of the 105 posts I have made so far individually.  Also spent a bit of time working on more of the project, some more stock has sold, so posted these too.

Really hot day again so took a walk down the canal for a bit to clear my head after being on the computer for so long this morning.  When I came back, I ended up spending some time in the back garden socialising with neighbours.  It was nice to have a catch-up and socialise with no thought of drinking or even being around it.  It was also good for me to speak about some of my recovery and hear their feedback.

Friends have been sending me positive messages of support today, and it feels nice that I am making amends with some friends too.  My drinking has caused me to lose many friends in the past, but now sober, I no longer will send stupid messages or make random calls.  In time, I hope I will be able to socialise with more friends again.

I have been asked to go to an event next month, it will be a big event with a lot of people having a drink.  It is a very good, old friend of mine, so I responded truthfully that I would need to see how I am doing in recovery and handling my triggers.  My friend responded by saying how they understand, which felt very reassuring.  I will be driving, so temptation will not hit me whilst I am there.  It is the drive home with the temptation to stop that might kick in, as this had been a trigger for me in the past.

I need to think hard as to how can I prevent this from happening. Possibly leave once the shops have passed the licencing law time, that way I won’t be able to buy it if I tempted. I also need to decide if I can be around a large group of people drinking.

Another week ahead, keep the momentum going.