Good start to the week and feeling very positive.

Sun I s still shining and work was not stressful at all.

The weekend was a little challenging but I feel proud of myself for not allowing temptation to kick in and put myself in a possible compromising situation.

A few more friends from the past have started to reconnect with me now, which is heartwarming.  All have been giving me kind words of support with some not realising that my issue with alcohol was actually an addiction.  Some knew that I was stopping drinking and trying to remain abstinent, but in hindsight, I was not honest with myself, or with other people.  No one really knew how bad my issue with alcohol was as I was hiding it, and saying that I had not been drinking when I had.

I received an email from my old therapist from the castle today, which was touching to read, reinforcing how important it is for me to work on finding my sponsor and just a general catch-up.  My old therapist has said that I can contact them anytime and I am grateful for having this level of support still with me.  I am looking forward to seeing my therapist again at the reunion.

Nearly 100 days sober and I feel that I found a better way of living.  Looking back to when I did drink, I now cannot see what it was I loved so much about it.  Life now is manageable and enjoyable.  I am however still an alcoholic and always will be.

Having one drink again WILL send me back down a path of life destruction.