My routine is back to normal and waking up at 6 am again.

This morning I could not hear out my left ear and it was excruciating.  This wasn’t very comforting to wake up to, but I paused and reassured myself that this is normal.  Olive oil in both ears and over the day, my hearing came back on and off in the left ear with the pain becoming duller.  It feels like the olive oil is making its way around the blockage and towards the ear drum.  I have never had this before, and it is a strange feeling when you are talking and can hear an echo of yourself in your head.

This is my first Wednesday without the aftercare, and today felt a bit like the same old same old day.  I suppose this is just adjusting to the new routine, as I now have nothing after work on a Wednesday evening.

I am starting to feel the urge to get back into the 12 steps and start from Step 1 again with a sponsor.  If I don’t make an active attempt to find a sponsor I may start becoming complacent.  I fully appreciate and understand how the 12 steps will help me to remain on the path of sobriety, and it feels like I have a gap within myself that is not being filled, by not working and aiming to complete the 12 steps.  I cannot plan the future, but I can help shape it, and if this is a feeling that is becoming stronger, then I must be active in dealing with this feeling before it turns into an issue.

I must actively look for a sponsor and start back on my 12 steps.

Gratitudes:
I am grateful to be sober another day