What did I get from which I am now ashamed?

July 2, 2023

Alcohol , Daily Reflection

What did I get from which I am now ashamed?

July 2, 2023

My routine remains strong waking up early.

My fellow and I went to church this morning and we picked up my Gran on the way.  My fellow and Gran hit it off immediately and this was warming to see.  My Gran was in very good spirits this morning and the three of us had a good conversation on the way to church.

The service today was about sin and welcome.  This service made me think of how I was a slave to my addiction. I obeyed my addiction, letting it take control of me.  When I was a slave to my sin, I was free in regard to righteousness, I was not morally correct or justifiable in my actions.

What advantage did I get from the things of which I am now ashamed?  Nothing!  If I had let my sin continue and become stronger, it would have ended in death.  The castle rehab, AA and my faith showed me a path to free me from my sins, and this path I have accepted with open arms, and continue to walk down, trying not to deviate.

My heart is joyful because of this saving help!

The service homily focused on welcome, and whoever welcomes you welcomes me.  This made me think about the week that has passed and how all the fellows that I have met with again, have all been extremely welcoming. I hope that I have made my fellow guests feel welcome and that my home has felt like a home from home.  To me, my fellow guests seem like they have felt welcome, such as paying for things, cooking meals and doing the little things like the dishes and tidying up.  None of which I expected nor asked from them, for which I am very grateful.

Weeks previous the church had organised a tour of Rosslyn Chapel, with a few congregation members walking a pilgrimage to the Chapel.  I had not told my fellow about this until this morning, so it was a nice surprise to follow up on an enjoyable morning service.  On the way to the Chapel, a family member treated us to some lunch, and it was comforting to see how well my fellow was getting on with my family and other church members.

Rosslyn Chapel is stunning!

Upon arriving the Chapel provided me with a wheelchair for my Gran, she uses a walker, but she would not enjoy it as much as being seated.  After a short tour, we freely walked around the Chapel.  The level of detail, architecture and history is amazing.  So many hidden gems and secrets lie in this chapel and it is worth a visit if you have not been before.  My Gran insisted that myself and my fellow walk around without her, so I left her with some other church members and after we had walked around, I took her around the Chapel so that she could also experience it.

I had a very nice day and I am hopeful that my fellow did too.  Time for a relaxing evening after such a busy week and then back to work tomorrow.  I wish I had more time off to spend with my fellow and tour some more of Scotland, but life must return to normal at some point.

Time to get the work head back on and return to the daily routine of life.

Gratitudes:
I am grateful for the castle, AA and faith for showing me a path to free me from my sins.
I am grateful for my family member providing us with lunch.
I am grateful to the church for restoring my faith.
I am grateful to be sober another day.

Alcohol , Daily Reflection