Day 39. The ego incident yesterday played on my mind a bit in bed last night. When I awoke this morning, I said morning to the peer and had a small morning chat (not related to yesterday), nothing was mentioned, . . . .

Day 38. The first lecture was on King/Queen baby and was interesting and at the time did not feel I could relate to a lot of the traits. Little did I know this evening, that the trait of ‘ego’ would . . . .

Day 37. Another mixed day of emotions. I have felt highly irritated all day and so have most peers in the castle. Overall all the peers were just irritating each other and a lot of negative energy with stupid rumours . . . .

Day 36. The first lecture was on the 12 promises. It made me think about how important it is to complete the first 5 steps and how the 12 steps is always evolving. Recovery is a process of change, and . . . .

Day 35. Woke up feeling positive and looking forward to church and a relaxed day. The peer I am buddying is having some issues getting up early, but it will take time to adjust. I tried a few times to . . . .

Day 34. 6.30 wake up on a Saturday! A nice fresh start to the day, woke up relaxed and ready for a slightly more chilled day. Spent the morning sorting out the cups (some needed a deep clean) as I . . . .

Day 33. I woke up feeling positive today knowing that I had handed my issues from yesterday over to my higher power. The day started with a lecture on cross-addiction, which at first, I thought my cross addiction was only . . . .

Day 32. Today has been a mixed bag of events and emotions. I shared in the men’s group today, which I felt went well and nice to share about my addiction. I shared how before coming into rehab, I don’t . . . .

Day 31. Another early 6 am wake up. The first lecture was on recovery and relapse. I found it very informative, especially how Fear can lead to relapse, which can also stand for; False Evidence Appearing Real In the group, . . . .

Day 30. Woke up at 6am feeling very good and relaxed within myself. Feeling the benefits of being 30 days sober. Motivation, sleep pattern and general happiness within myself, is starting to feel better than it has even been for . . . .

Day 29. 6 am wake up. Interesting start to the day with a lecture on ‘Coping with feelings’, this made me think a lot about how I handle my feelings, especially due to the ups and downs I have had . . . .

Day 28. 6.30 am Wake Up. Another chilled day in the castle. Had a lot of free time today, so spent it bonding with peers and getting some step work done. Wrote the letter to my Dad and the letter . . . .

Day 27. Had a 30 min lie-in as it’s the weekend, 6.30 am wake up. Had a very chilled cat today and decided not to do any step work, instead have a break, socialise and enjoy the day. Bonded some . . . .

Day 26. Another morning ad more cups to wash. The morning started off calm and easy with a focus to do some Step 2 work today. A few new peers have joined the castle, and I am a buddy with . . . .

Day 25. At the community meeting yesterday, I took on the task of dealing with the cups and glasses. Don’t need to collect them, as peers put them in the dishwasher trays. Just simply to deal with the dishwasher and . . . .

Day 24. Good routine back. Another COVID case in the castle, so the nurses have asked me to move room again. Now back at the top of the castle in a bigger and nicer room than the previous ones. I . . . .

Day 23. The first lecture was on ‘Why do our brains get addicted?’. I found this interesting, it went into talking about dopamine and triggers. It made me want to look more into what my triggers are, and how to . . . .

Day 22. The routine is coming back. Settled back into castle life, but I can see a few differences in some peers, as some other peers left whilst I was in isolation. It’s amazing how some time away can open . . . .

Day 21. Another chilled weekend in the castle. 6.30 wake up. The nurse informed me they found out the bag is for, it is another peer with the same surname as me. But as they were only put into the . . . .

Day 20. 06:00 Woke up and forgot it was the weekend, so went back to sleep. 07:00 Breakfast – Rice Krispies and apple juice. Feel tired but amazing this morning, hopefully today I can get released from isolation and back . . . .